Report re port

I realise that I have somewhat neglected to update on my de-portation, after complaining at length about the way my poor skin responded to the adhesive dressings!

Well, one reason it has not featured in my thoughts and words is because, quite simply, there has been nothing to report re the port.  Or rather re the void where the port was.  The surrounding skin calmed fairly quickly once dressings and adhesive were out of the picture, and healing has been incredibly quick.  I have been able to swim from day 7 and although the site is still a bit tender and raised, it is really looking very healthy.  In fact one friend thought it was my old scar, it is looking so good!  Well done Dr P!    It is wonderful being able to move my neck freely and I feel a greater freedom in my right arm.

And what about the port itself?  It might not be surprising to hear that I carry it around in my handbag, waiting for an opportunity to show anyone who shows the slightest interest.  And to anyone who is not interested.  And anyone in fact. It has appeared in the street, in the office (several times), in the supermarket and at a friend’s house and in a couple of cafes.  It even appeared on the flight back from Bangkok!   I don’t think the fascination will ever fade, it really is an amazing thing.  And it is MUCH better on the outside!

So that means I can focus on the riot of colour which is Yangon at the moment.  Jacaranda is blossoming, bright red flamboyant trees are budding and bursting into colour and frangipani and bougainvillea abound.


 

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Fast track to de-portation

Yesterday marked two years ago to the day that I had my 8th and I very much hope, my last chemo.  I remember the day clearly.  I had been anticipating it for so long expecting a sense of elation and celebration when the 8th cycle was done. Instead I remember being overwhelmed and crumbling in a soggy heap when the needle came out.  So it was by a strange coincidence that I was again in the oncology suite on 4 April, and again being prepped for needle insertion.  But this was very different.  There was no chemo ordered, and I was in the midst of 2 days of appointments for my regular check ups.  In a gap between appointments, I slathered my Emla cream on the port area and headed to Floor 5 to have my port flushed.  It was before my appointment with Dr W2, but I was not expecting any huge surprises as I had already seen the results of the bloodwork and seen Dr W (my breast surgeon), my radiotherapy consultant and endocrinologist.  They had written the magic “no recurrence” words (on my file and Dr W felt there was nothing worrying in the pain I had had in December.  However, I know Dr W2 looks at things through his oncology eyes, and I was still nervous about my appointment with him.

The port flushing went smoothly and happily there was a good blood return.  Before long I was “flushed” and heading out of the suite towards my appointment with Dr W2.  I had to wait a bit as he was held up in arriving at the hospital.  As always, I heard him before I saw him, and to my surprise I was ushered in a few minutes after he arrived.

He asked the usual questions and I had my list of questions for him too.  He always expresses interest in what is going on back home in Yangon and with the recent events I was fully expecting his questions on this too.  He did the usual examination and to my surprise announced that perhaps the port should come out!  What?  I have been wishing the port out for 2 years and willing him to say that he felt I would never need it again (yes, yes completely wishful thinking).  My response was to ask if it was no longer needed.  I was completely unprepared for his reply.  “I don’t like the look of your veins on this arm”.  He said.  They are much more pronounced than usual.  I don’t like it”.

My bubble was instantly burst and my worry head swung straight into action.  He was concerned there could be a clot forming and even though the port was working fine, it should come out if there was a risk of clotting.  I asked him what that would entail, knowing that surgery or some sort was inevitable, yet illogically wishing for magical port disappearance.  He told me that the surgeon who had inserted the port would be the one to remove it and he phoned him.  Then and there, right in front of me!  I asked the two key questions I had had and he replied quickly to these, meaning no change in meds or ongoing treatment.  He then set me up with an appointment for Dr P, the (appropriately initialled) port surgeon.  And then I was back in the waiting room somewhat shell-shocked, explaining the unexpected turn of events to my friend.  And still waiting for his questions about Yangon!

Dr P was operating all afternoon and his schedule was full but he could fit me in the following morning!  I was ushered through the paperwork side of things and asked to return at 9.15 in the morning.  I had a growing list of questions which were difficult for the nursing staff to answer.  I called on the help of our liaison manager and she talked through all of my questions with Dr P.  Along with the questions such as “when would the surgery take place?, “would it be safe/wise to travel a day after the surgery.  To India?”, “would the stitches be dissolvable or need to be removed?”, there was a question sneakily hidden in the midst of the other ones – “can I keep the port once it is removed?”  I seriously wanted to see this device, which I had hosted for 2.5 years and never actually seen except as a shadowy form on an x-ray.  I most definitely wanted to keep it!

My questions answered, I headed off finally, knowing I was to fast again (the second time in 3 days), to return for a consultation with Dr P at 9.15 with the likelihood of surgery under local anaesthetic at 11 am.  Now I am the biggest wimp on the planet when it comes to surgery and I begged for a “happy pill” to get me through this.  This was obliging agreed to and I was prescribed ONE Xanax tablet to take that night before sleeping!

I spent the evening updating family and slept fairly early in preparation for the scary stuff in the morning.  Thanks I am sure, to the Xanax I slept fairly well and rose early with increasing anxiety.  I packed most of my belongings away and took out a few essentials to take in with me, unsure exactly what I would do with my purse and credit card while under the knife.

My plan was to buy a book before my appointment with Dr P, but that was thwarted by the bookshop being closed until 9 am and I was at counter 5 long before then!  I was ushered very quickly into Dr P’s consulting room and he agreed that the port should come out.  Gulp.  It was really going to happen.  He looked at his schedule and said that he would see if he could do it right away to save me waiting until 11 am!  I asked for some happy pills and told him I was very nervous.  He asked me if I had anyone with me and when I said that I was on my own, he said that I should try meditation!  It would not be safe to send me off on my own after the procedure if I was unclear what planet I was on!  I then produced my Emla and asked if that would help as preparation.  He laughed and said that it would do no harm!  I then repeated my request to keep the port and again he laughed, amused by my curiosity about it.

I was then taken back to the waiting room, and signed the necessary papers.  the nurse told me that the surgery would be at 11 am and I could go and have a light breakfast if I wanted to.  I decided not to as it would be too much like tempting fate.  No food = no need for general anaesthetic!  I headed straight to the bookshop and somehow one book turned into four and I wandered up to the easy chairs to read while waiting for the clock to reach 10.30 which was my reporting time.  Within 10 minutes my mobile phone rang.  The time had been changed and could I come straight back to Counter 5 and be taken to theatre! GULP!

I did my obedient puppy act and went to counter 5, and was led up to the 2nd floor to the Theatre suite.  After depositing my essentials and the four new books in the safe, I was met at the door by a gowned nurse who exchanged my shoes for a pair of theatre shoes which I could have gone sailing in.  then I was given a gown and theatre cap and had to change ready for the surgery.

This was the first time I had walked into the OT – every other time I was wheeled in, partially sedated and lying flat on my back without my glasses so this was a very different and far too clear view for my liking.  I climbed onto the operating table and the staff started prepping me.  My blood pressure was very high, unsurprisingly as I had absolutely no sedation or synthetic happiness.  Within about ten minutes Dr P arrived and the serious stuff began.  A small frame was placed over my head and a green gauze sheet over it so I was suddenly housed in a green world as the work began.  After the local anaesthetic was injected, the incision was made, but I continued to feel pain until a few more doses had been administered.  This is something I have experienced before – the need to have higher doses of local anaesthetic.  Dr P responded immediately when I said I could feel pain and he administered more anaesthetic.  The procedure took a good bit longer than I expected, because my port had been placed quite deep.  Finally it would out though and I felt (and heard) Dr P cauterising the area to stop bleeding.  Rather alarmingly, I first heard this as “stop breathing”, which scared me until I realised it was his Thai pronunciation!  He then removed scarring and finally I could feel the area being closed and stitched.  The whole procedure had taken around 45 minutes, excluding the prep time.  I was SO glad it was over.

The green gauze sheet was removed, and Dr P’s smiling eyes appeared above his surgical mask.  He was waving the port at me and was highly amused when I greeted it with a cheery “hello!”.  This was bizarrely reminiscent of giving birth and being introduced to your new baby!!

I handed my spectacles, my nose stud, and my amazing port and ushered out of the OT and back to the changing area and recovery area.  It was OUT, I had finally been de-ported and could already feel it easier to move my neck.  The Frankenstein button on my neck has gone and I no longer have this weird foreign body in my chest.  I certainly made life so much easier for me but for now at least it’s work is done and it is not helpful to keep on hosting it.

The anaesthetic is now wearing off and bruising appearing but that is all part of the healing process. Ironically though, this has resulted in a change of plans but not for the reasons feared.  I actually had gone ahead and booked my ticket to India for Friday (6th April) but with a fresh surgical wound, heavy baggage, a complicated journey and hot weather and dust of dry season it would not be wise to travel to India.  but that is a whole other story, for another day!  I will take a few days to regroup and recover a bit from the hectic first months of the year and my de-portation.