Number 6

I do get myself into a state before each treatment – the dread and feardyness (Scottish for fear, although it could be a new word altogether?)  make the days leading up to each chemo unpleasant and difficult. 

However, the day itself, though punctuated with many feardy moments (particularly the ones associated with NEEDLES) seems like an unstoppable process and the day is long-ish but I am swept along as time ticks forwards.

So this morning, as usual, we left for the hospital with the necessary appointment slip, numbing cream (for the port area) and the blood test results from Yangon.  I checked in at Counter No 2 and was greeted like an old friend by the nurses.  I handed them the test results as well as the other papers, in a clear attempt to avoid another needle this morning!  I was summoned for the usual Blood Pressure (yep too high again – surprise) and weight checks and sent back to the waiting area without being sent to the lab for a blood test.  Slowly I allowed a little glint of optimism to break through – perhaps they won’t run the tests if they already have one set of results from only a couple of days ago?  I watched Dr W2’s door for clues and activity and sure enough after a short interval I could see the nurse being ejected from his room – she gestured over to me that I would be seen soon.  After a blood test – GRRRR!  But then she pointed upwards – now that can only mean one thing – that one of the lovely and gentle oncology nurses from Floor 5 had been summoned for the test.  I also saw her collecting some vials which must be waiting for me – chitter chitter!

Before long, I saw the white tunic and familiar face of oncology nurse A with her picnic basket.  I reacted with a mix of relief and increased feardyness.  I know she is really gentle, but again there is only way she is going to get that blood, and it will involve a needle.

Sure enough, I was called over and we greeted each other like friends. She did have trouble locating a vein (my arm has a line of bruises down the vein, of varying shades and sizes, which represent the timing and impact damage of the needlework).  She did find one and with her usual professionalism she gently removed what was needed.  She then prodded the port area a bit and put the numbing cream on.  That is another tactic – as well as numbing the area it also reduces the pressure which Dr W2 uses when he presses on the area to check it out!!

Back to the waiting area, a good book and after a while I heard my name called – there was Dr W2 at his door, beckoning me over.

He doesn’t beat around the bush – we had hardly sat down and he told me he was worried about my haemoglobin levels and worsening anaemia.  White counts are ok and clearly were helped by the post chemo shot.  He was pleased that I am making a serious effort to eat the most healthy diet I can, but said that even the best of food (even crocodile and octopus soup he said!!) can’t fight the effects of the chemo on my anaemia and he wants to do something about it.  Each intervention has its risks though so we agreed that he would do chemo no 6 and then see “how low it can go”.  Hmmm.  He said that the chemo is extremely hard-hitting.  Too right!!

So a bit of uncertainty now about Numbers 7 and 8.  Ach well that will mean increased levels of feardyness in 3 weeks time.

Eventually I was returned to the waiting area, a and a little while later a young man arrived in hospital uniform, walkie talkie clipped to his pocket and my file in his hands, and escorted me upstairs to the oncology ward and chemo number 6.

A few hours later, one needle in and several syringes and infusions later it was all over without incident and I was sent to the cashier and pharmacy.

So now I am back at the apartment, kept going by the anti side effect meds which are infused before the chemo, though a bit fuzzy headed as usual (yes, I know, nothing to do with chemo!!)  I have to go back for another needle tomorrow and then just to ride the side effect storm.

In the meantime, I am a bit like a child let loose in a sweetie shop because of the internet access.  I don’t know which site to access first and lurch from site to site, tempted as if they were my favourite sweets!  And I am taking full advantage while I am feeling ok-ish and while I can!

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3 thoughts on “Number 6

  1. Hang on in there Phillipa……….your accounts of your experiences are amazing….yes folks are correct…you should publish them!!!!!!
    Hope all goes well with No 6………we think of you often and how brave you are being…..a true Gritty Scot!!!!!!!! You are missing the snow in the Uk…..we are having a shock to our systems…….four months in the heat of Cambodia and then back to this. Good Luck and love to you both.

    • Thanks Sandra – just waiting for the side effects to kick in now – bracing for the inevitable!! I feel a real fraud though – I am truly not brave, just doing what has to be done as I want to be a cancer survivor and long for the day I will no longer be a cancer patient! To show you how brave I am (not)Jigme nipped away for a coffee when we were waiting yesterday and when he saw I was missing when he got back he phoned me as he thought I might have run away!!! I had actualy been called for my blood test so was not too AWOL!!

      Your time in Cambodia sounds wonderful – though I was worried about your toenails!!

      Yes, this winter seems to have been really severe. Looks like being a white summer, never mind white Christmas! Hope you manage to adjust ok.

      Love and hugs to you both – it is so good to hear from you.
      x

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