It’s that time again. I have a serious case of the heebie jeebies! And multi faceted heebie jeebies at that.
My skin is seriously sensitive, not just dry and sensitive, but tingly, tender and really creepy. Totally heebie jeebie skin! I remember this happening before too, about 3 weeks after the chemo sessions. If I bump against anything, it is much more painful than normal and often breaks the skin. Clothes irritate much more than usual and I remember my hair falling driving me crazy before. If there is so much as a miniscule, stubbly hair now I can feel it and Ihave to hunt it down and eradicate it.
The other heebie jeebies are the mental ones. I am now seriously close to the next scheduled Chemo date. I will have a blood test tomorrow and if it shows that I am well enough, then we will travel back to Bangkok on Saturday to see Dr W2 on Sunday. If all is well that will be Chemo 3 and Groundhog days next week. HEEBIE HEEBIE JEEBIE!!!
I have such mixed feelings. I have been really able to relax and heal here in Yangon and the thought of leaving our lovely space here and going back to limbo in Bangkok gives me a feel sinking feeling. (Emotional side). I know, however,that this takes me forward in the treatment and towards recovery (rational side). And I think most of all, I just dread the treatment and the groundhog days (even though I know I can do it and it is all well managed). I guess that is the Heebie Jeebie side!